Life-affirming triumph over breast cancer chronicled “ Smiling Thru the Tears: A Breast Cancer Survivor Odyssey” By Pamela deLeon-Lewis, is a collection of over 100 poems documenting Pamela deLeon-Lewis’ journey through, and eventual triumph over, breast cancer.
If the cover, which shows a smiling and radiantly healthy-looking young woman is any indication, she’s doing well.
Indeed, one is startled to learn, through these poems, that deLeon-Lewis is in her 50s, and a grandmother. The cycle begins with intimations of wrongness as the poet attributes the beginning of her cancer to her father’s death and the stress of 9/1 1 which sent her career as a consultant into disarray. She even dreams of being told she has cancer.
Yet, when the news comes in real life, it’s a shocker. She writes in “Dream Becomes Reality”: “I knew there was something wrong; Daily the signs were getting so strong.”
The resulting poems confirm and reaffirm her absolute faith in God. Some of them read like prayers or Psalms. A series of wonderfully angry poems shout her defiance in the face of life-threatening illness, as in the lines of “I’ll Stand Tall”: “But I refuse to stoop to you. You can’t conquer me at all.” She refers to the cancer itself as DeMon, a play, one guesses, on “demon” and “The Man,” the oppressor, the thing that’s out to do her in. There are homages to friends, to the “Chemo Squad” and the “Radiation Squad.”
Yet while she lauds the help of her squads, she doesn’t spare the reader the agony of her treatment: “I had sores in my mouth; I couldn’t eat. Pains in my legs, my feet, and my hands; I had pains in my eyes, pains in my head. So much pain it was blowing my mind,” (from “I Remember ... Part I.”)
There are poems of gratitude for the medical team that helped her, her daughters, her grandchildren, her aunties, her mother, her dead father, her neighbor, her younger daughter’s babysitter, the folks in a cancer support chatroom, Oprah Winfrey (“Ms. Oprah Winfrey is positively the world’s greatest incentive for me”) and even a stranger who smiles at her on the street, and poems.
There are poems that remind the reader that the aftermath of even a successful battle against breast cancer is hard. She still has pain, she can’t lift her right arm, and the treatment even damaged her brain.
Some poems contemplate what it’s like to have one’s right breast amputated (she used to refer to her breast as “lost”). When we learn that the doctors have found a calcification in her left breast, the suspense is comparable to anything in a murder mystery novel. Our relief when we find out that all is well is thorough.
The book ends with a poem by her grandson, Jahlani Andrew Roberts: “I am happy to say she is now Cancer Free!!! Now she has time to hang with me.”
Smiling Thru Tears is a triumphant, life-affirming book. Pamela deLeon Lewis has written a powerful book of poetry titled SMILING THRU THE TEARS A BREAST CANCER SURVIVOR ODYSSEY. Very rarely does a writer let you deep inside their soul and give you a deep insight into their struggles. This book runs the emotional gamut from sadness to anger to happiness .
The Courier Life
Pamela’s book is a book of poetry about her struggle with breast cancer and she takes you from the emotional discovery, thru remission and up to now. Some of the poems are very personal and you can see that they are directed at someone.
I read several books a year and very rarely do I read a book of poetry that I want to finish right away. With most poetry books all the poems start to read the same because there was one writer. Not so with this book, there are more than 150 poems each one distinctive from the next.
My favorite poem from the book is “It Better Not Be You” about the possible return of her cancer. To me this poem reflects the inner strength of it’s writer and her refusal to give in to cancer.
This by far the best book of poetry I have read this year, hell it’s the best book I’ve read this year even better than the masterpiece I wrote and that ain’t easy. In case you haven’t figured it out yet I highly recommend this book.